Emotional:
Now that the physical symptoms have settled down, I think the emotional/hormonal things are starting to surface. I've been suffering big time from something everyone seems to call "pregnancy brain". Supposedly, the decrease in oxygen going to the brain and other factors make you feel dumber during pregnancy. I've certainly been feeling like that! I've been doing really stupid things like leaving my taps running, forgetting simple math, and once I almost poured lemonade onto my meal instead of into my cup!!! It's a very frustrating feeling, because I've always been really smart. Now I just feel clumsy and... really out of it! Also, I have cried over really stupid things. Sometimes, I'll start laughing, and when I laugh really hard, I'll cry. I've had this little quirk since the begining of my pregnancy, but I hope it goes away soon. I've also had that "crying over silly things" side-effect. So yeah, a lot of hormonal changes going on. It's frustrating, but I'll get through it. :) I'm also very happy these days because I think I may have found a job! Since I've taken a year off school to make sure I still get my scholarship (I can't get it if I only go for a half year), I have nothing much to do from now until Harmony is born, and having a job would certainly help. I'll write more about it later. Things with Chris and I are going well. It's frustrating sometimes because I wish he could be more involved, but I know it's hard for him right now, because our daughter is very hidden from him and he's not as aware of her as I certainly am. I get daily reminders from Harmony that she's here and alive and well, and when I get into my pyjamas at night and get dressed in the morning, I always check out that tummy that looks so foreign on the rest of my body but also seems to fit perfectly in a way. We keep trying to have him feel her kick, and I'm hoping that sometime before he goes back to school, he will. Maybe that will connect him more to his daughter. But despite this small frustration, everything is going well. We're very much in love and spending lots of time together. We discussed Harmony's last name this weekend, and have decided to give her his last name. He was surprised, because he thought I would prefer giving her my name, or a hyphenated one, but I had good reasons and I think once I told him those reasons, he understood where I was coming from (although I wont share them here). I feel really good about the way my life is going. I spend time going to programs, which help me and are helping Harmony as well. I think by the time she's here, I'll be ready.
Physical:
Feeling ok, still really tired. Maybe those iron pills haven't kicked in yet, or just aren't helping. I've still been sleeping lots- like 9-11 hours a night, but for some reason I still feel really tired during the day. It's weird because some nights I'll get an energy surge at like 10 o'clock at night and so instead of going to bed as planned, I'll get some work done, or clean the kitchen or something equally insane... don't know why that is, but I guess it's good to get things done. Harmony's still kicking atively, and getting stronger too. Not a day goes by that I don't hear from her at least a couple times. I still can't tell what exactly she's up to, and whether she's kicking, poking, headbutting, or just moving around and somehow pushing against the walls, but I can definetely tell she's doing something! :)