Emotional:
This week has been good. I went shopping for maternity clothes on Thursday with Jen and actually cried in the store! Why, you ask? Because the clothes felt so good!!! I know, it's so silly to cry over that, it's just that in those clothes, I felt beautiful again. I've been trying to wear my regular clothes as long as I could but even with a button undone on each side, my short overalls were feeling tight around my middle. Also, wearing non-maternity clothes when you're as far as 5 months pregnant does nothing for your figure or your self-esteem. I think that's mostly because you remember clearly the way they *used* to fit, whereas with maternity clothes, you don't feel like you're busting your seams! I got a pair of jeans, a pair of overalls, and two shirts. I figure that's enough of a base of real clothes, the rest of my "pregnancy wardrobe" I can make do with some of the second hand stuff I've been given and some second hand stuff I'll buy at Value Village. But those 4 pieces of clothes that I did let myself buy new were so expensive!!! I'm glad I had money saved up from work, other wise I wouldn't have been able to have those wonderful clothes.
Another fun event was going to a party on Friday night, something I haven't done in a really long time. It was hard being around so many people who were drinking, but I'm proud to say I didn't cave in. It was pretty easy to abstain- all I had to do was think of Harmony and the urge went away! Also at this party, Chris felt his daughter move for the very first time. He was less excited than I'd hoped he would be, but I'm hoping he'll make up for his lack of enthusiam during the pregnancy once our baby is actually here and able to look at him and smile and grab his finger in her tiny fist... :)
Physical:
I'm still not obviously showing! I met a couple people at the party on Friday who after talking to me for a while, admitted they were wondering whether or not I was but didn't want to ask in case I wasn't. So, my pregnancy is still not an obvious thing, even when I'm wearing my maternity clothes! But I'm certainly noticing the continuing changes. I read somewhere that there is approximately 400 ml of amniotic fluid in my uterus. I measured it out one day while I was filling up the measuring cup anyways -I was making Kool-Aid :)- and no wonder I feel such a heavy feeling in my middle!
I'm still feeling Harmony move around lots, and am starting to be able to distinguish exactly what she's doing, instead of just lumping any movement into the "kick" category. For example, I felt the very first "wiggle". It felt like a little shudder across a larger section of my tummy than usual. Also, there's begining to be more of a variation in strengths. Sometimes it's just a little poke, and I think those ones are just a punch and then sometimes she can really make my tummy jump! It's so interesting for me to just lie there, very still, and wonder what she's up to. I get so curious about the actual level of intelligence of a fetus- I believe they're smarter than people think they are. I'm almost certain she gets "hungry" when I don't eat for a while (which doesn't happen often cause I eat three regular sized meals a day with a few snacks in between) cause she seems more active at those times. But that just might be coincidence. Oh- one funny story! At the party, she was pretty quiet and then someone got out a guitar and we started to sing. She started moving around more, and kicking quite frequently. I think she really liked the music, and Chris kept joking that she was really "partying" in there. :) It already seems like Harmony has her own little personality and I can't wait to get to know her better.