Emotional:
Well, so much has happened! I've been looking more and more into my options and trying
to see if it's possible to go to university next year. I've already
put myself on the day care waiting list at the university I want to go to,
so that even if I end up going in Fall 99, baby will have somewhere to
go that's nearby her/his mom.
My mother now knows about my pregnancy and is being really great about
it. She understands that I just need her support right now, not any
lectures and I appreciate her caring. I just wish the baby's other grandmother
was taking it as well... :(
Chris (aka "baby's Dad") is home from university... this has added a lot of
confusion into my life, especially where Matt is concerned...
It was easy to date someone else while Chris was very much out of the
picture but now that Chris is home and trying to make up for his
past mistakes, Matt and I will have to be friends only. Chris is
now trying very hard to make up for a lot of the problems we've had
throughout our relationship (which has lasted about a year and a quarter,
off and on). I find it difficult to trust him since he has really hurt
me in the past but he seems happy about having a baby together and
I think we can work out our problems and provide our child with parents
who love eachother.
Besides my relations with other people, I am also slowly adjusting
more and more to the idea of a child. I'm trying to arrange my life
so that I can still do the things I want to do (like go to university)
while still making sure my child will be provided for. I'm actually
pretty happy about this baby and am getting more and more excited about
the fact that I will soon have this wonderful, miraculous child in my life
and I will be a Mom!!! :)
Physical:
This has been the week of nausea! It seems that things have gotten a lot worse and I just feel sick almost all the time. It strikes at any time of day, usually several times a day. I haven't been vomitting much (thank goodness) but there have been many many times when I've just had to sit down in the close vicinity of a toilet, just in case. I also still feel really tired, and have trouble staying awake in mid afternoon. I really can't wait until the nausea stops!!!